Loving you is like loving the life of my own (Part I)
I have now got accustomed to something,
every other two or three days, I would tell you what I wouldn’t want to impart to anyone else.
Of course I do have something more yet to tell you, but as long as I have brought them to you,
I would be happy to walk away, free from all that is on my mind.
I am now a good man with conscience. You are my conscience.
Deep down there are times that I could be cynical and arrogant toward people.
But there’s a core of my soul,
delicate as a lamb, fears all the darkness of the world.
The only solace I can find is through a love which is purely unconditional.
To me, you are part of the core.
I am in love with you, since the moment I caught sight of you.
My love to you casts aside all my self-seeking thoughts.
Will I ever stop loving you? Will I?
No. Loving you is like loving the life of my own.
But I just can’t figure out how to get closer to you.
You are within my sight, yet too far to reach, and too vague to see through.
I chase after you as fast as I could, but can never get up to you, only to sit on the ground and weep by myself.
I will cry if you are into someone else, even so I will still have a crush on you.
I can hand you over all my soul,
along with my quirks, my caprice, my dark side and the bright,
all together in 1800 ways I could be so bad.
Annoying as it is, my love for you is the best thing I have in me.
You know what I value most in this world?
My personality, also the freedom to think as I will.
Even in this respect I can give up them all.
That is to say, changing and influencing me is up to you.
Then why would you frown to my mistakes unconsciously done and the hurt I bring you one time or two?
There are many I hold dear, especially you.
For many I wish to do something good, especially for you.
You, being so adorable, deserve the best man in the world. I do wish I could be the one.
So if you please, be in love, with me.
You don’t really have to love me, but I love you. It’s destined.
Should you come back to me, I would be so elated.
Soon you’ll see me setting off firecrackers that rock the whole city of Beijing.